Why (The Double Standard)

the ground is unsteady
why
why am i not more of a priority

why

i deserve not to be the option
i have worked hard
very hard to be a part of your life

why

why do you shove me away
like i don't belong in it
or worse make it so i don't
feel comfortable

why

why would you want me
but only at arms length
i know i deserve
i have earned more
you are and have been my number one

priority

for well
close to the beginning
i don't get it
my life if i don't share
details i am hiding
but you are allowed to
withhold everything at your
discression
and i have to accept
i cannot question without
shoving you away

why

it is a double standard
i know you don't see it
i don't want ultimatums
i just want to be
that priority too
i have earned it
i am worth it